Emilia Clarke’s greatest apprehension
Emilia Clarke’s greatest apprehension following her experience with a brain haemorrhage was not the prospect of “dying,” but rather the fear of “being fired.” The 37-year-old former ‘Game of Thrones’ star faced life-threatening situations when she underwent life-saving surgery due to two brain aneurysms, one in 2011 and another in 2013. What consumed her thoughts during this challenging time was her determination to return to work.
Speaking to Harper’s Bazaar UK for their December/January issue, just ahead of being honoured with the Actress award at the Harper’s Bazaar Women of the Year Awards in 2023, set for November 7, Emilia Clarke revealed, “I wasn’t afraid of dying. I was afraid of being fired! I decided: ‘This is not something that’s going to define me.’ I never gave into any feeling of ‘Why me? This sucks.’ I was just like – ‘gotta get back on it.'”
Even after experiencing her second haemorrhage, her concerns persisted. She worried that her colleagues might view her as “unreliable” due to the fact that “half my brain is gone.” She shared her feelings, saying, “If I’m being brutally honest, the whole thing made me feel very ashamed. Like I was broken. As though the producers must think I’m an unreliable person that they’ve hired.”
Emilia Clarke went on to discuss the physical evidence of her ordeal, stating, “If you look at my brain scans, there are a lot of black parts, and that is where it’s dead. How could I trust my experience? How could I trust that what was happening to me was real? Half my brain is gone. So what is gone with it? […] That plagued me for a really long time. It’s taken me a decade to understand that where I am now, and my identity, is a result of my experiences.”
The ‘Me Before You’ star acknowledges that without her brain haemorrhage, she might have become a self-absorbed individual. However, her life-altering health scares have taught her to embrace failure and use it as a tool for personal growth. She explained, “If I hadn’t had a brain haemorrhage, I might have turned into a right old d******, thinking I was the bee’s knees, living in Hollywood. I’m so much more aware of what’s happening, in the moment that it’s happening. I don’t worry about failure – I thrive on failure! If something goes wrong, I always think you can fix it. It hurts, it’s scary, but then you can do anything.”
News Source: Perthnow
